Frequently I’m asked questions I’m not sure how to answer; “Aren’t you scared?” “What about the food, what will you eat? Are there big bugs? Will you have to EAT the bugs? Will you get malaria!? Will you die?”
Truthfully, I am scared - not for my life but for the women who are dying there in childbirth. I am nervous about the many diseases and questionable food, but I’m more nervous for the newborns suffering from them and dying.
Believe me, I would rather live a comfortable life, eat fresh crab and sip on lattes. But I want to to obey God more.
He has put in my heart a desire to go. He has given me a love for the hurting, the dying and the lost - especially those lost in sin!
Frankly, I can’t imagine a place I would rather be. I can’t imagine a people I’d rather serve.
So to answer your questions. No. I am not scared to go.
It is my joy.
I expect God to move in great ways - first in my heart but also among His people.
I do expect hardships and trials, lonely days and sadness. But I also expect God to work in great ways! He is a God who does not disappoint! My expectations are great! For He is GREAT and most worthy of praise! Thanks for coming with me!
Love Stephanie
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Dear Stephanie,
ReplyDeleteI got your link from Jeamette this morning, and as I read this particular blog, I cried. I cried for the women in labor and the babies in pain and the amazing friendship and kinship I think you and I will have when I get there. I too have a heart for the pregnant moms, although that is all I have...no medical skill, no medical knowledge...just a heart to love them, to care for them, and sometimes wash their feet because no one else in their lives might do that for them. I will be reading your blogs....and praying for you! Mike and I leave our cushy lives here in San Diego on Sept 1, destination: Tonj, Sudan..to live and work alongside you and grow in the things God has for us. I can't wait to meet you face to face....
Your soon to be sister in Sudan.
Amy Yordt